Actually I haven't forget about uss date

Don't try - will never happen
Try - might happen
Don't try - regret not trying

Stayed back in school to finish my java which is due like on wednesday and I'm like 20% complete only

Lol

Jia you

i think i should find a time, sit down
do a proper talk about it
instead of wondering

i feel so betrayed

you should have just told me the reason instead of avoiding it

i swear i will never get into the stage of neither here nor there in the future again

fuck this world

fuck this.
part of me wanted you
part of me say you are not the type
part of me say no you are
part of me say no you cannot be like last time, letting go of this chance without doing anything
and so i poured my emotions, my actions into it
mistakes learned you cannot be too nice
sometimes if it doesn't work out
you cannot reveal to others
you cannot show hand all at once
fuck this

I may not look like it
I feel very empty sometimes
Fuck this world

ok i made an effort to come here to update

nothing much, had school, eat with school friends at ghim moh road

wanted to try deburg cause heard there say the food is awesome

but

it is not open!

lolz

in the end had normal chicken rice

but the char siew rice there is nice

traditional cooking method

at least know where to get some good char siew rice

that area is god forsaken place

never been there before

have to complete my lab 2

arghz

feeling lazy lolz

bye

HI blog!!!

it's been so long since i last visited you!

so long till i felt the urge to delete every single post i had posted on this blog

yes every single post, even those post that i jotted down but in the end concluded that it can never go to see the light of the day

those EMO post u could call it

buy hey , those EMO post is what i really felt at that time/date and is what defines me.

so...

now it's 5.38am in the midnight, was lying on my bed but can't sleep

i found out that whenever i want to go to sleep

lying on my bed , that period is the time that makes me think of a lot of things

my uncertain future, my worries.

was thinking about where i will work next time once i graduate.

currently i'm studying computer science

yesh its those nerd shit

buy hey i like what i study right now

doing computer codes is what makes me as an ET , felt alive really

rushing those assignments, writing out the program, which could take up to 4 days in and out

i like this kind of life, waking up, knowing u need to complete something, rushing it, pulling your hair at times when the program didnt work out

and then when u felt really frustrated when u can't come up with the solution

and i meant REALLY frustrated

and then i would go to my kitchen to grab food here and there

and maybe even outright sleep on my bed

then come back to the com

stare at it blankly again... lOLZ

the cursor flashing

_ _ _ _ _ _

still can't come up with the solution

cursor flashing again
_ _ _ _ _ _

lolz

and then out of nowhere ---- POOT!

your brain suddenly came up with the ingenius idea

lolz and when it work out

WOOT~!

yeah man.

for my band,

two members had already left singapore to study for degrees

since then our band had already disbanded, and you could say at the moment beside school, i think i have nothing really to spice up my life

looking forward to the next new band that the rest of the members are coming up with.

seriously,

typing till now

i had thought to type even more

but lying here on my bed, with my laptop (lolz sound like a song)

i have to THINK about what i type, so as not to offend people

before i really type in

really constrained

hopefully i won't be so constrained next time

want to get out the ET in me

yesh i know a lot of people say i am really a quiet guy

actually no, it is just that i express things differently

i will make it a point to type in something everyday from now on

and lucky u,

cause i know since i neglected this blog for a long time

many out there would assume this blog is dead, and thus not visit it

u visiting it means u care

i could open up here

lolz

i am a EMO kid

k bye